Saturday, December 20, 2008

Alas, School Came to an End

For freaking like 3 weeks. What will I do? Besides open crap, buy crap for people to open, and go to Prague? I don't LIKE Christmas Break. I like Christmas, but I don't enjoy breaks very much. I don't even enjoy weekends. I want to go to school. Always. School = <3

I'll try to do interesting things over break though, and not just be on the computer.

Things I Will Do:
-Read Breaking Dawn (If I get it for Christmas which hopefully and probably I will. I'm reading New Moon and Eclipse again, as well. Not Twilight because Sara/h in my class has it. She's not even freaking reading it. It's just, in her locker. Fail.)
-Go on walks (try to explore my super-great city...)
-Buy crap for people to open (I have a lot of presents purchased already, actually. Just a few people left...)
-Open crap (that's like my hilight of this month. Cause I'm going to get some awesome things. I'll have fun watching other family members of mine open crap, as well. That's what makes Christmas so darn jolly.)
-Be on the computer (It's inevitable. I need a life.)
-Try to get a life (Like, sign up for guitar and/or piano lessons, maybe, and karate or something? choir? fun things that give me a life?)
-Try to just have fun and not waste the three weeks...

Avalon's going to Colorado. Oh, how I wish I could too. :( I miss people and things.

Yesterday was the biggest waste of school ever. The only useful thing that happened was that we got our grades. We got out at freaking 9 am. So Abi and Lina and I just went to the library, then on that tire swing thingy near the library, then the park by that... Then Lina went home... Then Abi and I went shopping for a freaking long time and ate lunch at McDonalds... Then we both went home as well. The end. Oh yeah, and we also went to Kulturhuset and played Blokus for a very long time. I love Blokus.

And last night I started to watch Titanic but it had too bad quality so I just stopped, and went to sleep at like 11. And then today I woke up at like 11. I got half of a day of sleep. Whee. Today I've just been feeling not in a good mood. Not in a bad mood, either, just not happy and upbeat. I dunno. I don't really feel like doing anything. I'm not even tired, though.

Ugggghhh I don't want to be at home/in Prague for so long

I stopped biting my nails. Like, for good. Which is insaaaane. I've bit my nails for literally as long as I can remember. And now they're literally as long as they've ever been. I can scratch people. If my arm is itchy, I don't need to bite it to scratch it for lack of any nails to do the job. I think that is a major improvement.

I really wonder what presents I'll be recieving this fine Christmas. I'll most certainly tell you, my lovely blog-readers. Whoever you are. Like, my mom, my dad, Sarah, Reilly apparently, and apparently sometimes my uncle Brett. Quite an audience I've got goin on there.

I'm going to make a seperate blog for surveys cause I always post them on here and they just waste space. So yeah. If you care about my surveys, go read it and bookmark it. I doubt you care about my surveys though.

Uuuughh I want to go home. I want to spend this horrible long Christmas break at home with Sarah and Avalon and Reilly, going to Flatirons Mall and whatevers left of Twin Peaks Mall and eating fruit snacks and Starbucks and Izze and Vitamin Water and good Chinese food and whatever other completely wonderful unhealthy crap they have lining the walls of King Soopers...

I want to go home for school next year. I want to go to American high school for 10th grade. I've missed one year already. Freshman year, dude. I think maybe Sophomore year is the most unimportant year... Like, books are always written about students starting high school, so therefore they're starting Freshman year, or they're about Junior or Senior year. Like, always. Sophomore year doesn't seem to matter. I think that might be when you're the most invisible.

Which would be a nice time to go to high school for the first time, maybe. Cause then the other grades don't care about you. So they don't notice how you fail at high school.

Starting in Junior or Senior year would absolutely suck.

There's my logic for you.

Friday, December 5, 2008

hmm. lets see whether im supposedly girly or not.

I AM ___% GIRLY

DON'T FILL THIS OUT HERE - GET SURVEY CODE AND FILL IT OUT ON MYSPACE
[ ] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops: er, im filling this out. i dont even care. pretty much. or converse, but mostly flip-flops.
[ ] my favorite toys as a child were barbies: because id turn them into orphans and stuff, though, so does that really count?
[ ] my favorite color is pink or purple: pink <3
[ ] I did Gymnastics: no i did not
[ ] I love skirts: when theyre cute.
[ ] Hollister is one of my favorite places to shop: ew no.
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans I'll wear: well. straight-leg jeans. preferably skinny jeans. most of my jeans are not as tight as id like them to be, though.
[ ] I love chocolate: oh man yes. <3 <3
[ ] I've never had a real job: of course i havent; im 14.
[ ] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted: well, theyre almost always decorated by little bits of nail polish that once was
TOTAL:: i dont know, dude, i dont even know which ones to count and which not to
`: this is a useless space, now, isnt it?
[ ] my hair is almost always straightened: id like it to be. it just gets wavy though. stupid humidity.
[ ] I have at least 8 MySpace pictures: dude, i have like 40 and im not even ever on myspace
[ ] I usually go shopping once a week: actually, no, i dont. i could, and i should, being that i live by götgatan, but i dont.
[ ] I love to hang out at the mall with friends: of course <3
[ ] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earrings: nope.
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon: ive been to them but not to personally use. i dont want to be tan and i dont want to fry my skin.
[ ] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim: id never go to the freaking beach if it was up to me. the beach is boring. except, im sure it would be aweosme with friends.
[ ] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes: uhh... i think maybe, yeah
[ ] I watch either The Hills or Gossip Girl: no, i dont. theyre boring. i normally like girly shows but nothing even happens on those.
[ ] I change my default pic weekly: nooo D: especially not on myspace
[ ] I wear a shower cap: uh, no...
`: rawr
TOTAL:: rawrrr
`: rawrrrrrr
[ ] I don't shop at Hot Topic: i love hot topic ):
[ ] my cell phone might as well become a part of me: yeah, even though i never do anything with it except take pictures and videos, and play quadrapop
[ ] I wear mascara everyday: yep <3 but with eyeliner, does that really count as "girly"?
[ ] I've been or am on a diet: ive wanted to. ive tried. ive been for like 3 days total.
[ ] bathing suits are adorable: on other people, they can be.
[ ] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat: of course i do... does girly really = stupid?
[ ] big sunglasses are hot: yesss :)
[ ] I have gotten my nails done: yes. like 5 times or so.
[ ] I own over 10 purses: no D:
[ ] MTV is one of my favorite channels: of course!
`: (8= X
TOTAL:: lolololololol
`: :) :( :] :[ :D D: >:D D:<
[ ] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys: XD no. i like to have philosophical discussions. sometimes on the subject of guys, but you know. XP
[ ] I love to have other girls do my hair: no, actually, i dont
[ ] I give and receive hugs from all my friends: i dont, actually :( i should. i love hugs.
[ ] I hate bugs: if theyre creepy and nasty, which most bugs are
[ ] carnivals are so fun!: yes :D why is that girly...?
[ ] Summer is THE best season: i like all four for different reasons.
[ ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces: yeah. two stripe-y brightly colored pieces.
[ ] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor: no, because when i imagine modern guys who fit that mold i imagine... well, those preppy boys with the spikey blonde hair and the polo shirts. and thats very ew.
[ ] musicians are so hot: if they are, then they are, yes... its not like being a musician alone makes you hot...
[ ] If you write me a poem and tell me I'm beautiful, I'm all yours: not necessarily, but thatd be cute and nice.
`: ...
TOTAL:: ...
`: ...
[ ] I am self-conscious: sometimes.
[ ] I cry often: not very.
[ ] my car smells like vanilla or cherry: i dont have a car. so no.
[ ] my dishes get washed more than once a week: yes of course.
[ ] I don't do sports: no, i dont.
[ ] I HATE to run: sometimes i dont.
[ ] I squeal when i am surprised or angry: or a large variety of other emotions.
[ ] I eat dried fruit as a snack: i would, that i had it
[ ] I love romance novels: yes !
[ ] Miley Cyrus is so cute: eww lord no.
`: .......
TOTAL:: ....
`: ...............
[ ] I dance a lot: kind of.
[ ] I usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house: heh no. usually like 30-45 minutes. cause i shower at night.
[ ] I only have like 5 billion hair products: i have about 4 including both shampoo and conditioner
[ ] I love to get dressed up: not really. maybe. probably not.
[ ] every part of my outfit needs to match: not match but go. lol.
[ ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends: i hate talking on the phone...
[ ] I would love to have a photo shoot done of myself: maybe :P depends what kind
[ ] I apply lip stuff like 50 times a day: yeah XD i do.
[ ] I wish I were a model: not really, no.
`: ........
TOTAL:: .......
`: ......
[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton: D: dude, does anybody in the world actually like look up to her and think shes awesome? thats so ew. shes like, stupid and not very pretty, and doesnt even remotely deserve to be famous.
[ ] I have been something that was semi-formal: that makes no sense
[ ] I own Uggs: ew no.
[ ] Hip Hop is one of the best music styles: D: no, no, no
[ ] I pop my collar: ewww. i dont even wear freaking polo shirts.
[ ] I like to be the center of attention: not really.
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy: uh, not necessarily crazy.
[ ] horses are beautiful: theyre horses.
[ ] I'd rather not pay attention in school: who would prefer to pay attention? people do that out of obligation, if at all
[ ] Cats are adorable: of course they are
`: ........
TOTAL:: ...........
`: ..........
[ ] I write my own music: sometimes. just lyrics though.
[ ] I would love to visit someplace tropical like Hawaii: id prefer better places. i am a city girl.
[ ] Valentine's day is so cute!: i guess it would be if something cute happened on it
[ ] white is better than black: sometimes
[ ] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black: i so would.
[ ] my closet is CHOCK FULL of clothes: not really.
[ ] I hate the grunge look: D: nooo
[ ] I love to read magazines like Cosmo and Seventeen: yes :3 i do.
`: ..........
TOTAL:: ............
`: ..........
[ ] I love to gossip: yeah, actually
[ ] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid: pssh yeah.
[ ] I love Britney Spears: her music is always so good >< always!! old and new, i swear
[ ] my bubble baths are 1-2hrs long: lol ive had one bath in the past like few years and that was on the silja linje cruise back from finland. it was a fun bath. it was a freaking huge tub with the bubble thingys. man, i was just swimming around having a great old time.
[ ] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned: ive barely even thought about what kind of dress i want
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group: no, dude
[ ] I like little kids: yes :3
[ ] Diet drinks are the best: ew, no. only sprite zero is good. diet dr pepper isnt actually bad, though, i guess.
[ ] I'm all about being vegetarian: i would love to be. but also, theres a lot of things i dont want to give up.
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonald's: uh, no, i dont
`: ........
TOTAL:: ...........
`: ................
[ ] I check my MySpace/Facebook everyday: facebook :3
[ ] I love life!: yes. usually.
[ ] I have a lot of jewlery!: kind of.
[ ] my screen name(s) have X's in them: dude that is NOT girly. you fail.
[ ] my MySpace names has/had <3's in them: sometimes :P
[ ] I would never want to be the opposite sex: for like a week at the very very most, i would love to. just to try it. itd be fun.
[ ] It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it: very, very, very true
[ ] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed: ahaha i have 3 normal-sized pillows and a gazillion tiny pillows.
[ ] Twilight is AWESOME!!!!!: of course it is :D
[ ] I have or have made a friendship bracelet: yes. when i was like 12.
[ ] I like to dot my I's with hearts: sometimes :3
[ ] I know who Luscious Lana is: no i dont. sorry.
`: .............
TOTAL:: ...............
`: ..........................end!
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Thursday, December 4, 2008

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Three Years Ago[for girls]

Three Years Ago...
What color was your hair?: same color it is right now. this was... 6th grade. i was like 11.. whoa.
How long or short was it?: it was like... a little bit longer than it is now. i didnt have fringe anymore, i dont think. it was all boring and stuff though.
Did you have braces?: uhh... yes, i did, actually.
Who where your 3 best friends?: avalon, reilly, and sarah
Did you wear glasses?: sometimes. sometimes contacts.
What school did you go to?: tpca !!
Where did you live?: firestone. oh, lovely firestone. how i miss your rows of boring houses with walmart holiday decorations on the porch, and varying niceness of lawns - some being brown, some being crayola green.
What was your favorite drink?: uhh... dr pepper
Did you have a cell phone?: nope
Where did you shop?: like, pac sun and ross and crap
Did you have a camera?: uhh, not yet. for christmas i got about the worst camera in the world though.
What color nail polish did you wear?: like, black sometimes, i think. i think my parents disliked that at the time. other colors, like chrome and red, too, though.
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: i had none l o l
Where did you work?: er, tpca. my occupation was "student."
Who did you look up to?: oh, freaking kate. she was "my idol" and stuff and i followed her around and hugged her a lot and it was really weirddd.
Where you happy?: uh, i was kind of... eccentric at that point. i dunno about happy.
What was your favorite color?: either purple or black
What did you start doing?: um. being a gothtard.
Where was your favorite place?: i have no idea, my bedroom ? i miss that bedroom :( i hope nobody lives in it. i hope its a place for storage or something. i dont want some random girl ruining it.
What activity did you do?: um. like, nothing. being on the computer, trying and failing to draw, writing terrible stories about orphan girls and horses in my journal. pretending a lot, too, i still did that then.
What pet did you have?: woody. we also still had joey. i miss joey :( and sidney, and maybe taht fish andy. he was alive for a lot of years.
What kind of music did you listen to?: i dont know, dude. old flyleaf. gwen stefani. the killers. black eyed peas. etc.
Where did you usually hang out?: my bedroom? school? other peoples houses?
Did you read a lot?: not really, no. i read, but not very much.
What grade were you in?: 6th
How was life?: weird and crazy
Good memories or bad memories?: both. mostly just good, and embarrassing, and weird.
Things you liked to do?: dude, i dont know! try to draw anime. be obsessed with japan, the grudge, the ring, and anime. be a gothtard. etc.
Your crush?: wasnt it, like, liam for a little bit? and then of course there was still that weird brendon gebhart thing going on, but that barely counts. i was still young and just decided to like whatever random guy, at that point.
What has changed?
Who's your boyfriend/girlfriend?: i dont have one atm l o l
What kind of music do you listen to?: good music.
Who are your 5 best friends?: sarah, avalon, reilly, and, like, most of the people at school. but mostly just sarah.
What pet do you have[want]?: woody, but hes in america. sidney, but hes also in america. what do i want? dude, i want a baby pygmy hippo. or a hedgehog. or an owl. or a tamarin. or an aye-aye.
Where do you work?: at school. my occupation status is still "student..." no wait!! on youtube what am i? lemme go check. oh yeah! gravedigger/paparazzi/flowershop owner... awesome. thats me.
What grade are you in?: 9th :3 im in 9 e n.
Where do you live?: in the best city in the world, <3
Who do you live with?: min familj
Where do you shop?: stores that are cool.
What color is your hair?: boring
Is is long or short or what?: dude, freaking neither. its boring-lengthed, as well. its not boring-layered, though, so thats good.
What is your favorite drink?: like, stuff sweden doesnt even have, and strawberry fun lite
Who's your crush?: why would i just... this is a blog, dude.
Has a lot changed?: er, i barely have any of that person left in me

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Monday, December 1, 2008

Another Survey...

do you, would you, have you?

do you cry?: well yes? being human and one with emotions at that
do you snore?: not that i know of. i certainly dont think so.
do you sleep walk?: nope
do you talking in your sleep?: sometimes lol. i have, anyway.
do you wear overalls?: pssh no. i would so get some though, if they were awesome. overalls can be awesome, its entirely possible.
do you think your emotionally strong?: i guess so. its not like i just start screaming at people and punching them when they make me angry. or anything like that.
do you text quickly?: not really.
do you type quick?: 66; i took the test earlier. so thats only like half of sarahs but its not my fastest so i suppose im fast.
do you feel understood?: uh. often, no.
do you sleep naked?: oh yes, oh yes. thats me for you.
do you believe in god?: mmhm
do you believe in premarital sex?: i believe in the concept of it; yes. i believe it is correct; no.
do you believe in dating under sixteen?: pssh yes of course
do you like sarcasm?: love it. when i was about 11 i told my grandma it was my second language.
do you trust others?: fairly easily.
do you believe in karma?: to some degree?
do you think looks matter?: to the degree that the person can control it, yes. as in, people should bathe and be properly hygenical and whatnot. they should put in extra effort though too... do their hair somewhat nice, dont wear crappy clothes, etc.
do you think your attractive?: not extremely, but im not just freaking out all the time cause i think im ugly or anything
do you wish on stars?: noes.
do you wish on 11:11?: yes :D
do you wish on anything at all?: i do that swedish thing of breaking pepparkakor into 3 pieces and wishing as i eat them. heehee. im cool.
do you like your hand writing?: when its good
would you ever jump off a bridge?: no?
would you ever sky dive?: pssh yeah
would you ever donate your organs?: maybe. im an organ donor; i have the little <3 on my id :] yes, i have an id. its cool except i look like a gothtard on it.
would you rather be creamated or buried?: buried. i wanna go in a coffin. wheee.
would you rather die young or live forever?: die young, probably. but i could get used to living forever.
would you ever bungee jump?: sure!
would you ever dump the one you love for the one you like?: er, no? thats retarded
would you ever delete your myspace?: yes i would if necessary, and i wouldnt be very sad about it either
have you ever cried during a movie?: of course
been so drunk you blacked out?: ive never been drunk to begin with, mister
gone out in your pjs?: pssh yes. i ate at a restaurant in texas in my pjs. it was so cool. i was like, l o l i look like crap and im wearing pajamas.
gone out with out makeup on?: yeah. it makes me feel like not meagan.
gone out without your hair done?: yes. i spent a lot of the beginning of the school year doing that. now i straighten it ev-er-y-day.
gotten into a car accident?: nope
any other type of accident?: like, the kind where i try to jump over the horse thing in gym but crash to the ground onto my arm instead? twice? so the third time i just walk around it? oh no. never happened. :P
have you ever had the principal call home?: noes. our principal has white hair. hes svensk. lol.
have you ever gotten detention?: no i have not
suspended?: nope
have you ever cried over someone?: kind of? probably?
thought about death?: hasnt everybody?
though about killling youself?: ive thought about how completely creepy and terrifying the concept is.
dont something stupid with your phone?: probably.
in the last 24 hours have you cried?: nope
cussed?: probably
cut your hair?: ahaha. yes. it was under 24 hours ago, awesome. and when i say cut my hair, i mean i cut my hair. yesss.
had sex?: what do you think?
kissed someone?: well no
held someones hand?: nope
texted?: nope
called someone?: nope
talked to the person you like/love?: -follows the trend of saying nope- nope
played truth or dare?: nope
missed somenoe?: of course ! :( i miss someone every day.
been mean?: maybe in some way or another
complimented someone?: probably
screamed?: dont think so no.
wore a skirt?: yes, i wore a skirt for about 10 seconds and then took it off. no, dude, i have not worn a skirt in the last 24 hours.
hurt yourself?: i fell down about 5 times during gym, you know? 2 of those times hurt. also one of my burns hurt a lot during gym.

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Spoiler Alerts... Spoiler Alertssss...

TWILIGHT MOVIE xD

So I take it you saw the movie...
How was it?: SPOILER ALERTS MY FRIENDS WHO HAVENT SEEN IT. uh, amazing??just
Were the books better?: yeah i think so. pretty much, anyway.
I haven't seen it yet.. do you think I should?: people shouldnt take this for fear of spoilers
Have you read all the books?: except breaking dawn.
which was you favorite?: man i dunno. all of them? :3
Did you picture the charecters different?: yeah. i dont even imagine the characters how stephanie describes them, like, in the books. my edward has dark hair. my alice is way, way tinier than the actress; she looks like a small 14-year-old, and shes, like, scene/emo. emmett is a metalhead. jasper is ryan ross. etc.
If so, which ones?: well um
What did they look like?: edward: pretty much just alex evans. alice: your typical small emo/scene adorable chick. alice: eh, somewhere between a scene queen and a preppy girl. emmett: metalhead. jasper: ryan ross. esme: blonde. all angelic and soft looking. carlisle: pretty much exactly like the movie. bella: pretty much exactly like the movie except with straight hair.
space for the last question: charlie: bigger? fatter? more gray moustache and less black moustache? erik: well, not asian, but thatll certainly do. mike: uh, like, wayyy smaller. longer hair, etc. angela: i always imagined her being kind of big and with long red hair, but thats just me. jessica: wayyy meaner-looking and blonder and stuff. not very pretty but obviously trying to be. etc.
more space:
If/when they make the other books into movies will you see them?: yes!!
which will be your favorite?: i dont freaking know. new moon will be uber depressing if they do it right. and the werewolves will hopefull be awesome.
Do you have a different favorite character now? because of the movie?: nah but i like jacob more now cause he was so adorable in the movie.
if yeah, who was your favorite before?: well, edward. and alice. but i like my alice more than movie-alice.
Whats you favorite thing about Alice?: in the movie? really nothing. she should have been way more loud and tiny and out there. and more dancing-around-gracefully-type movement. you know?
Is it your favorite movie now?: no but its on the list for sure.
What was your favorite part?: the baseball scene, maybe? :] i was all like OMGEEE SUPERMASSIVE BLACK HOLE and singing along <3
Do you think they could've made it better?: parts. characters.
Do you think the girl that plays Bella is ugly?: of course not
Who would you cast as Bella?: eh. her? or some other brunette girl? i dont know!
Are you going to buy one of "Bella's engagement rings"?: pssh no. XP im not THAT much of a crazed fan.
how about one of her bracelets?: no.
Do you have any Twilight gear?: nope. i would get some, though. if it was cheap :P
I bet you wore it to the movie.. didnt you?: ahaha. no, i wore my gray grafitti shirt to the movie.
Who did you see the movie with?: like 8 people?
Did you take your bf/gf?: yeah i did. my nonexistant one. it was pretty great.
Anything about the movie you would like to complain about?: bella wasnt happy enough; alice wasnt alice enough. thats all i can think of for now.
Are you going to tell your friends to see it?: most of my friends have :D
Did you preorder your tickets?: yep.
Did you download Bella's lullaby?: no, but i will.
Are you going to get the soundtrack?: maybe.
Are you a fan of Muse?: yes. :D thats why i freaked out, you see?
Did you read The Host?: no, but i dont want to
Was it as good as the Twilight saga?: no. lol.
Do you think the acting was done well?: mostly
Did you notice that the guy that plays Edward is also in Harrry Potter?: are you retarded? did anybody not notice that?
Do you think thats funny? I happen to.: wow, ive picked up "are you retarded" and "are you stupid" from my classmates. brilliant. no, i dont, not really anyway.
If someone made fun of Twilight books or the movie would you be offended?: not reeeeally.
...would you want to hurt them?: ahaha no.
Is Jacob annoying?: no!!
Could you tolerate him?: yes!!
Do you have a personal Jacob? I do.: no, i dont.
How about a personal Edward?: nobody freaking existent has their own edward
Anything else thats similar to your life?: umm. not really

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