I Miss (The Sequel)

Driving past Chestnut St. or Dr. or whatever and always, always thinking of Paige
Going to look in your window to see if you were on the computer, which you usually were
The way your house smells, which is like you x 1000
That room in the basement. All of them, but especially the bedroom
Your drums which that guy named whatever gave you
You going inside your drum and freaking out about how awesome it was
Me putting all my crap on your floor all completely unorganizedly
Looking at all your old photo albums, and your baby book, and your parents' yearbooks
Playing Life
Playing Guess Who
Playing Scattergories
Playing Outburst Jr. as much as you did not want to
That tribal guy in your dining room who was as tall as you at a cetain point in time
That particular shade of blue that room is painted, and how your mom's laptop is always in there
Meeting Shadow, and her being completely insane all over me
Zoey, and how weird she smells and her lack of an eye
Going on your trampoline
Staying up until 2 am, sneaking out, going on your trampoline, and watching the meteor shower. I did something completely weird with my legs the whole time that resulted in breaking your toe, literally. It was so, so cold out
That picture of you and a chipmunk in the basement
That bed, and its patches with the scissors on it
That painting I dropped on your head
That bed with the Wumbo light above it
Yelling "wumbooo!" and drawing a W on you
Us hitting eachother on the arm really, really freaking hard for no reason and laughing hysterically
Welsey asking why we would do that
Us not knowing why we would do that, but doing it anyway
"Pole dancing," and then your mom getting mad at you for joking about pole dancing way later
Eating cereal straws
Playing Guitar Hero in that storage room, on the Wumbo bed, in your parents' room, and especially in your little home theatre
The dead things in that little home theatre, and your living room, especially that elk head that looks at you
All your electronics
The crazy awesome brightness of your room
Sleeping in your room for some reason only twice, and how weird it was
Throwing dinosaurs at your ceiling
Talking about either how there was no way we could always be best friends, or how there was no way we could not always be best friends
Laughing hysterically at things like "German!" and "mmmBLUH"
Talking about that time we went on the trampoline with water, and those guys that apparently thought we were hot, and the I AM THE GODDESS OF WATER and singing Word Disassociation
That tree that cut itself, and how sad we were for it
Going on Barefoot Walks. not just barefoot walks, but Barefoot Walks because they have a title
Freaking out about how hot the ground is
Running through sprinklers
Swinging, even though going through the wood chips was incredibly painful
Going on walks in my neighborhood at night, and laying on the sidewalk, and swinging
Having completely pointless conversations
Having completely philosophical conversations
Having completely depressing conversations
Always understanding eachother better than anybody else could
Me having RLS, and shaking that bed
Inhaling helium and saying FREE BIRD!
That pajama party at the school
Yelling FREE BIRD! at the guitar guys at Flatirons, and always feeling like we were taking some big risk for some reason
That XM radio which would play songs from people's conversations, namely Mother
Going into Abercrombie and Fitch and looking at the tiny clothes and never finding any black. Except that black Spiderman
Looking at the dollar section at Target.
Walking to Target.
Buying two giant ice creams from Coldstone and not finishing the strawberry one.
Buying Jujubes.
Keeping a couple Jujubes, which are wrapped up in your British flag shirt with some potpourri from your basement, a tissue with the blue stuff to keep your nose from hurting, and a bead thing from that stupid freaking Niwot thing
Feeling so terrible for you at the Niwot thing and being there for no reason except that it would have sucked for you so much more without me there
Hugging you when we'd cry because that would be the best thing I could come up with to do
Hugging you randomly at the mall or wherever because you'd say something I'd feel bad for you about
Ranting and raving about stuff all the time
Discussing freaking everything ever, never running out of things to say because each conversation brought on another one
Getting a friendship bracelet from you but only being able to choose one cause they were hard to make
Going into Build-a-Bear just to "squish bears" and take some bows. We'll make one someday.
Debating what to get at Claire's, always
Those 10-for-5 sales that don't freaking exist anymore
Discovering how amazing Nirvana perfume smelled
That Reese's lip crap and you putting it on me while watching Music Man, and on several other occassions
Finding that blue hair band by your house and putting it on my wrist. It's still there.
Arguing with you about useless stuff like grammar but completely never fighting with you
Heavenfest. Every little thing about it. I could make a whole list like this about that
Never not getting sushi at Flatirons, never not sitting by the fire when we eat that sushi, and then throwing the wasabi in the fire whether it was on or not
Getting free samples of sushi
"Do you want me to throw this coin into the fire?"
Going to Starbucks for the last time before you dropped me off at the hotel
Telling the hotel lady I was in room 812 or something even though I don't think that hotel had more than two floors, but being too stressed out and sad to care
Crying in your basement both times I went to Sweden
Taking pictures in the photobooths at the mall, even though that one time we forgot
Spilling both those drinks and then, just, leaving, at the mall
You getting candy at the candy store and giving some to Alex to make him not tell your parents
Drinking Dr Pepper or Izze or Vitamin Water with you, pretty much anywhere
Watching Bananas, or those videos from your video-making class, or anything on TV your brother was watching
Taking a shower in that freaking shower even though it was weird
Being all secretive or something about being naked when I was preparing for the shower, as little as it mattered and even though you were like "I don't care, dude"
Saying "I really have no choice but to protect my hair color"
Knocking over the shower curtain
Going behind the couch thing and apparently breaking the speaker
Breaking the tetherball pole thing, even though you were clearly kind of angry
Those Christian-y things surrounding the mirror in the bathroom
The Caution: Falling Coconuts thing
That :D toothbrush holder
Playing that Christian Un-game game thing
That picture on your fridge of "Liam"
All those pictures on your fridge, and magnets. I could probably name them all
That display of pictures by the table. Like, the one where you're afraid of grass
The shoe closet, and putting my shoes in there
Every freaking thing in your room
Hands Hands Fingers Thumb
Jam Rock Jam Pack Jam
Driving with Amy, and bowling
You talking to that guy, and him getting mad at you about going on that thing
Getting all mad about having to go into Limited Too with my parents
Buying those palm trees
The palm tree clock thing
That clock in the basement and how it's the only thing you can see
Talking about how you could just see whatever color you thought of in the darkness
Talking about how songs were associated with colors for us
Talking about all the crazy-weird phenomenons and disorders we had, and how many of them we shared and freaked out about sharing
Going to the library, either by my house or in Longmont
All the memories we have, and inside jokes. The amount of my mind storing stuff I've done with you is probably competing with the stuff I've done with my family.
How it takes a lot, a lot of time with you to get annoyed by you
How hanging out with you for a long time makes me start saying you-ish phrases and thinking in your voice
You.

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